Wednesday, November 30, 2005


my last post was shorter than i wanted it to be. but my mom was starting to look over my shoulder and read, and i couldn't let her.
i'm grounded (for "making a scene" when craig slapped my butt in wal-mart, but i'll have to tell you about that later) so nothing much to say.
except that i'm an awful person. with lax social skills, by the way. today, and ben, and the ashly and the me not seeing and.... oh... it makes me feel bad. me and ashly where walking and ben was pulling out in his car, and she said "look there's your boyfriend" and i just start looking and i didn't think. he was in his car. not just walking. so i missed him. and she's like. "you didn't even react!" i told her i didn't see him. then i saw his car at the stop sign, and i felt bad. cause the loser blew me a kiss. i love him.
it's the christmas season! joy! i'm truly happy right now. cause now it's not bad, just happy. and fun. and red and green and ribbon-y. it rocks.
what's up in your lives? trust me, i'm bored enough to be truly interested
i'm out

Sunday, November 27, 2005

not doing so well with that posting more

you love me anyway.

thanksgiving sucks. i hate it. loathe it. lets kill it. we'll start a petition, who says it's a national holiday!
my family believes i'm anorexic. aren't they stupid? i'm grounded for not letting craig slap my butt in walmart. well i'm grounded because i 'made a scene' about it. if someone you HATED beyond all reason, slaps your butt when you told him not to touch you slaps your butt, you react. that's the end of the story.
whatever though.
good news. me and ben have been going out for 2 months and some odd days. it's weird. i don't know why. but it is.
i went to the movies on wednesday. that was fun. victoria had to sit in front of me an ben. so now i'm trying to win her forgiveness. except that she keeps forgetting to be pissed. i kept having to tie her shoe, and say i love you. and cuddle with her. in front of the movies. it was fun. she's blonde now, and it's sexy. and hilarisou because she's asian.
love you

Monday, November 14, 2005

hastings is the coolest place on earth! and i should be shoot for my loseriness

ok, fun at the game and then at hastings
stacy and lindsay you know this, you were there. i felt up stacy's purse, wasn't that fun? there's was abuse with the books and the herbivore magazine that was quite good because it wasn't as whiney as the E magazine in the library. you all remember victoria's friend, well best poet on earth. i'll plagarize some of his for you later, for now i'm out.

Thursday, November 10, 2005


yay, i'm sorry
i haven't updated in awhile and awhile before that. so sorry. i'll try to update more, i really will because i feel so out of the loop. (example- pete and taylor!!!! i had to show you my shock with exclamations because you cannot see my face)
i realized i seem to have developed new friends as of late. mostly bridget. who i'm going to make a gold statue of and make her the new buddha. she's much sexier than buddha so buddhist will be easilly converted. i'll update more often, but for now, it ends
love you tootles

Friday, October 28, 2005

oh.... i'm a slut

yay, that's why i was grounded. i'm a slut. at least my mom thinks so. i don't need to mention that her and craig think sitting with a boy on the band bus is inappropraite and that holding hands leads to groping (other than groping of the hand). lots of drama, lots of grounding, lots of wanting to rip my mom's hair out and shove it down and throat then peel bloody stripes of skin off of her body and listen to her scream- ing. also lots of missing school (no skipping but LOTS of trips) and lots of not enough time with Ben. who i love. deal with it. cause i do. and i know i do because i got all angsty because i know i do.

but i can tell you all of this. later. tonight later. fun at lindsay's! vicki's coming.

bye bye
love ya

Saturday, September 24, 2005

the class of 2007 really likes us freshpeople

not freshmen, freshpeople. it's poltically correct that way.

but seriously, these juniors really do. last week Jeremy Dodd asked out Ashly (though he may be a sophmore, i don't really know) and then on wednesday Fred asked out Kayla (she broke up with that cody guy on saturday) and zach finally asked out victoria on thursday (well, not FINALLY, because like a year and a half ago he asked her out after church camp and she liked him but said no because of something or another) oh... and then there's me an Ben.

what you say? yay, Ben asked me out. i'm trying my damndest not to squeal and jump and do all the ridiculously girlly things i want to because i'd then have to kill myself. i'm so freaking giddy! i haven't sleept since thursday (which is when he asked me out) now i know i said that dating this young was kind of pointless, but me and Ben can actually go places (he has red miata, and sometimes drives his dad's jeep or truck) and i like him SO much. he's one of the major reasons i stopped liking micheal last year (did i tell you he's in love with me now? and i mean micheal) and i know him pretty well and still like him so much.

here's the whole story from thursday morning to last night. kayla is being ridiculously giddy because she's going out with Fred. but then she meets me in Civics(we just talk in there, nothing else neither of us listen and i'm getting a 100) and she is even giddier. then she tells me that Ben wanted to know if i liked him because he's a bit stupider than we thought. at church he asked Victoria to ask me and she told Kayla because we have second period together. Kayla says he's going to ask me out. her and Victoria had a bet going for when. i told Kayla he probably won't ask me out for awhile, but still i'm giddy all day. then band roles around and he asks if i want to go for a ride with him after school (we had after school band practise and this was something i wasn't supposed to do so shhh) i of course say yes. then during lunch he asks if i'm going to the football game tonight, i hadn't planned on it but if he was going, i definetly would. so we plan to meet there where the jr. high band is playing because there's where most of our peeps will be.

after school i go against mummy dears wishes and go for a ride with Ben. (he took the top down on his miata, it was fun. that was the third time i'd been in his car but the first time he'd taken down the top) and when we got on main street and he didn't have to shift gears, he just kind of grabs my hand and holds it. and above the enigine, music, wind, and other cars i swear you could hear my heart beating. it was insane. i loved it.
well on the way back to the band room, he does it again! yay! and then there's band and he offers me a ride home but my mom's coming to get me. i told him i'd see him at that game when i left, so sweet how he left after i did.
all insane giddy happiness until finally it's seven. me and him walk around the football field, go in the band section and chill with Victoria and them. but we started to walk around the football field during half time with our peeps but by 4 quarter that had to be back in band so it was just me and him. and every now and again he'd grab my hand again i'd we would just walk like that. then, when i absoluetly least expected it (we where talking about why people didn't wear skirts anymore(which means we where under the bleachers and looking up)) he put his hand around my waist and asks if i want to go out with him. i say" yay, i do." then we hold hands some more, until the game ends. and then i call my mom and tell her to pick me up at the band room. then me and him go wait there and talk to our other friends. and i tell them. and Kayla and Victoria try to figure out who gets the money. there was lots of squealing on their part.
then my mom pulls up and i hug Ben. then... i realize i'm going to have to tell her, and Craig, and Josh, and Justin. holy hell, people.
but i do. i tell them all (actually Josh had left, so i don't think he knows) Craig says he needs to meet him before we can go anywhere together and Justin warns me about PDA. i hardly slept that night, i'd just kept waking up and being all excited. then, yesterday was the away game to pottsville (so far away) and we signed the bus list BEFORE he asked me out. so i was seating with Victoria, in front of Ben. ha! i seat with him during the game, there was hand holding and his arm around my waist, and i loved it!
on the way home, they let us switch seat, so i left Victoria on her own and sat with Ben. she sang some song about being on her own. i didn't care. me and Ben sink kind of low in our seat, he has one arm behind me and the other either holding my hand, stroking my leg or my side, or in my pocket(which was only for a bit) then he kisses me!

i'm leaving you there. i'll tell you the rest later.
i love you chicks, so peace out.

Sunday, September 18, 2005

wow... i'm bored

all right sweethearts. long postie time!
grounded so no spending the night at stacy's. heart broken. no movies with her either or nerding around at hastings. i'm terribley terribly sad. but when i talked to her on saturday to tell her the sadness, she said maybe next weekend. which should work, so yay!
more sadness. that i didn't tell stacy because i could tell she was already terribly broken up about me not coming (i'm glad you didn't cry until we were off the phone) but friday was a day of drama!
seriously, lots of it. tears and all.
begining- kayla has been dating this guy for like a year, seriously way to long. but they fight constantly and now they're thinking about breaking up. well... kayla told this guy nick, who she likes, and he misunderstood and has been telling every one that they broke up(but they didn't) long(and rather boring) story short. nick tells fred that kayla likes him, not fred. but fred REALLY likes kayla and thinks that kayla doesn't return the emotions (i of course knew nothing of this sort) and kayla does return the liking. well, drama begins because nick and fred are BESTES BUDS and well... drama. but i don't know why, because kayla and cody are still together (as of friday night) but appeareantly it resolved because fred drove kayla to the fifth quarter thing at the church. oh... more did i mention that lindsey (roggenbach) REALLY likes fred and is friend of kayla, who likesish fred and fred likes? yay... drama(as if i haven't said that enough)
football game. i got my heart broken... i think. i'm not sure. and i don't know who to ask.
lindsay (don't know last name, but a different one) comes with emily(shipley) and hannah(griffin) who are some cool cats. all of them are. well i'm hangin out with everyone and when ben leaves the group to talk to zach(avant) one of lindsay's tag-alongs i didn't know askes her 'are you sure he's your boyfriend?' and lindsay had been saying she knew VERY few people here and ben was one she did know (i know this because well, they go to church together sometimes and i sometimes go on the youth outing magigs). but, he would of told me. especially by now, since it's pretty obvious i like him. and kayla and victoria would have too. because they love me and wouldn't want me to be heartbroken (and they know both of them so..) and they even planned to talk to ben about asking me out. because they're physco. i of course told them to shutup and sit down.

football game was better than i thought, mostly because i got to sit next to ashly and ben! ashly is like my hoe. i love her. there was funnel cake and drinks, grass, and insults, i was called gay and told to go out with ben more than once. ashly isn't very smart.. or subtle.

now, i realize that you don't really know alot of the people i've been talking about.
so enjoy the list.
Kayla Marple- chick. going out with Cody Storm for over a year.
Mikey something or another- Kayla's cousin ( i thik i typed mickey last time, because i'm stupid) and he wants me. seriously, he got my number from kayla. but i didn't yell at her because he's a nice kid and all. to bad he didn't call becase i was denying my feeling for ben. so he had a chance.
Ashly Moran- she's my hoe.

er.. and grumble i'll have to finish later
i'm out